UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGH!!!!!!

so yea, ever have those days where its a quarter after six in the morning, you havent slept in 2days, your listening to Led Zeppelin and your somewhat wired on cheetos and 3 liters of mountain dew? yea, i had one of those days too, in fact, its still in motion, but yea, whatever. so when did my life become so sad that im resorting to collecting bottles and cans for gas money, has my life reached an all time low? hmm, starting to look like it eh folks. but yea, anyway, i have an opportunity to move down to tennesee for a few weeks, get some cash in my pocket and get my life in order, but unfortunatly, my family wont back me up on it for some odd reason. is my family "anti matt being happy" or something?ya know, half the time, i wonder why i even value their opinion, because all they ever do is crap on what i stand for and who i am. but oh well, what are families for i guess. what else is on my mind.....hmmmm, oh yea, im still waiting on the military to pick their asses up and get a jump on helping me towards the next step of my life. so lets see, my life is at a literal stand still, i cant go back or i get people bitching at me, and i have no place to go foreward to......so what the hell...........and oh yea, the present is proving to be more boring than watching flies fuck on my kitchen counter. so yea, aint life grand!?! wow, yea, im in a bit of a mood and i apoligize for that, sorry about that. anyway, im about to start walking up to random people today and telling them to piss off and suck my sack.......hehehe, im in a bit of a pissy mood today, i just want to go out and start a fight with someone.....its been a while since i got my ass kicked, but its sort of a refreshing feeling, gets all the senses to wake up. seeing that bright flash and the smeel of blood in your nose....it is a feeling i miss. crazy i know.. what else is on my mind...oh yea, they tracked down the guy that gave the penguins at the detroit zoo chlamydiah (or however you spell it) yea, apparently, 4 penguins died from it.....for those who dont know what it is, its a STD thats common among dirty people that sleep around with a rubber......everyone can single out these kinds of people, they are the ones scratching themselves on monday morning wondering who or what they screwed sunday night. but yea, like i said, you can always pick them out....im not sure what people are up to nowadays, but it makes me scared for my future safety and im thinking bout moving to canada. but i think i will end this for now and try to get some sleep....im a little shakey. so umm yea, gnight.
~matt~